Had to conitnue as a seperate post, because of some wrong fingering on the key board by my raw hand.Well, there might be some changes in MSS's fortunes also. Sriram might not have gone to Bombay and so soon to heaven, in which case MSS family might have had more affluence and might help Latchi off and on . As to, Latchi's :- Brin would have married a doctor colleague and emigrated to the States. She might or might not have named her son Bala.And , Maya, not condemned to be my back-pocket, might also have become a doctor, specialising either in paediatrics or geriatrics.(This reminds me of an exercise done under the supervision of Kaji/Mulla by "seettu kulukkal" wherein we determined what we were in our previous birth; the only slot of human went to my mother and rest was all birds, animals, reptiles and one elf-- which position was Bhavani's. I was a rat; Maya a pig, by which suffix she was addressed for a long time thereafter.Now we have a past life regressionist - as she calls herself- Priya. She addresses people often in India Habitat Centre and other auditoriums. But has not obliged my request to call me. I am even prepared to climb the stage and admit about my previous birth- whatever she says.)
As to myself, Iwould have graduated from cycle mechanic to motor mechanic by 1960 and make a try whether Subbu Athhan would adopt me and give me his Norton motor cycle or one of his trucks. He would not. Therefore, with this sorrow eating my soul , I would have moved on to be an helper first and then a truck driver. I would travel to all corners of the country-side, learn many languages. With a beedi behind my ear I would sing loudly and mellifluously to my dog seated in the co-dvr seat. And from far and near i would bring things big and small to mother at Raj's place, to other sisters and MSS and his flock. But , monetarily I would be always a Zero, not having learnt either to keep or save. Inspite of being a truck driver i would not have contacted AIDS, because my strong sense of sibling loyalty would keep me a virgin, as other three are. Not only this; I would be learned, for a truck driver-- knowing Gitanjali by heart and many passges of Khalil Gibran, The Holy Bible and Gurbani.
And in my last days ,when I want to lay my tired bones to rest, I may approach the only crorepathi in the family(Praise be to the Metro) and request him to accommodate me in D272 in the verandah(even as Madhuram Patti was in the pumphouse) as a chowkidar.. Well, he has to think. He has to ask Kritika.. She hasto speak to Sekar Why can't one be sent from Chennai/. He can NOT decide. Forget it. I may as well lie down on the pavement next to Nigambodh Ghat, along with so many others. And, get run over by a SUV driven by a drunken money-bag.RAM nam sat hai.
"WHEN I think of this end of my moments, the barrier of the moments breaks and I see by the light of death thy world with its careless treasures, Rare is its lowliest seat, rare is its meanest of. lives......Things that I longed for in vain and things that I got --let them pass. Let me but truly possess the things that I ever spurned and overlooked."........GITANJALI 92.
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